One of my “New Year’s Resolutions” was to devote more time to my blog, yet it’s nearly three weeks into 2017 and I still haven’t written a single post. So I’ve decided to make up for it by writing a reasonably long one – one of those posts in which I discuss pretty much everything, including both the bad and the good. So pour yourself some tea/coffee/Jack Daniel’s, sit back and scroll through my thoughts. Enjoy.
Let’s start off by considering 2016 for one last time. I’m not really into conspiracies, but when people claim that 2016 was cursed, I can’t help but agree. Some say it’s a leap year thing, others assume that it’s somehow related to the Chinese calendar. However, my favourite one has got to be the “Satan’s Year” theory; something related to 2016 and the number 666. I don’t know about you, but the name suits the year shockingly well.
Although I consider myself a more or less rational thinker, I can’t help but lean towards these theories. Probably 99% of the people I’ve spoken to about 2016 have either mentioned that they were going through serious problems (of all sorts), or at least suffered from frequent unpleasant occurrences (also of all sorts). And don’t even get me started on the shocking number of celebrity deaths, plane crashes, natural disasters and colossal political instability across the globe. Coincidence? I don’t think so.
On a general note, I just wanted to reflect a bit on the previous year. However, instead of just complaining, I’m going to write an honest review, including both the pretty and the ugly. It cannot be denied that 2016 was eventful, and I genuinely learnt a lot – mostly how to deal with all kinds of situations. If you’ve been following my blog, you’ll probably be aware of how –pardon my French – FUCKED UP everything got towards the second half of the year. Let’s start with the main problem; unpleasant health problems, that could have been minor but ended up progressing due to a misdiagnosis by one of the “best health centers around”. After deciding to give modern medicine a second chance, and finding a genuinely good doctor sometime in December, I finally managed to find out what’s wrong and began drinking the right type of medication (and not the wrong kind that made me throw everything up – even water!). However, because I was scared to back to the doctor for several months prior (no wonder), it may take some time for me to fully go back to normal. But at least I’m on the right track.
Other adversities include getting myself into a couple of pretty destructive relationships and remaining quite oblivious to the fact that they were destructive, falling behind on my classes and becoming the most stressed I’ve ever been in my life, arguing/falling out/losing some close friends, being ignorant and developing several unhealthy habits that I’m still trying to get rid of today.
Nonetheless, I would also like to – surprise, surprise – reflect on some of the good moments. In fact, “moments” is the ideal word to describe them, since that’s exactly what they were – fleeting fragments in a sea of catastrophe. These include trying a lot of new things, meeting some awesome people, securing a freelance job (which is both interesting and not very time-consuming), going to several great concerts, experiencing one of the most relaxing holidays of my life and a handful of genuinely good blog posts. It’s safe to say that I’m a very different person even compared to one year ago; I developed the ability to deal with difficulties, figured out who my true friends are and – most importantly – realized that negativity doesn’t stick around forever. When you feel bad, whether it’s physical or mental, the most important thing is to remember that it’s not going to stay like that forever.
On a closing note, I would like to mention a couple of things concerning 2017. Maybe it’s just me, but I’m already feeling a different kind of aura; everything seems more hopeful, more positive. There hasn’t been enough time for change yet, but I definitely have the feeling that it’s just around the corner. Whether this feeling is due to external changes or a more positive outlook, I cannot really say – all I know is that it’s a good one. Oh, and one final word of advice: there are good years and there are bad years, but that doesn’t mean that we aren’t in control. Got it? Good!
PS. If you’re one of those people that actually experienced a good year in 2016, I have two things to say to you: 1) you’re basically a unicorn, 2) I’m both impressed and envious.