Sometimes, the best company is your own company. You don’t really feel like talking much, especially when the majority of conversations surrounding you are superficial and meaningless. Keeping that up becomes too much effort, so you just sit back and watch the days go by. And that confuses people, because “weren’t you the girl who used to talk to everyone?”, “weren’t you the person who was always out somewhere?”. Well yeah, but there’s only so much you can gain from the outside world before you become bored. Not tired, not sad, not disappointed – bored.
It doesn’t mean you’re going to stay like this forever. Often, you change when your environment changes. But what if you can’t really change your environment yet? Obviously, you’re going to get a bit weary. Some people are good at hiding that, others – not so much. So until something new comes along, you’re gonna prefer to spend time by yourself. And that’s great, because only you truly know what your mood craves at any given moment.
Watch a movie, read a book, do some work, go for a walk, play an instrument, hit the gym – spend some time alone. Society pushes you to be friendly and active all the time, to the point where you start to feel as though you are physically allergic to all of it. So go solo for now. It’s okay if you end up looking like a bit of a bitch. In the long run, it really doesn’t matter.